Till now

yesterday study section

was late but omella was latest. sorry regina. (:

studying was fun. with yesterday's group, it's hell lots of fun. for some reason, i didn't know why either.

managed to study a few topics for chemistry. felt so nice. (: leona and charis joined us after the wang lee hong thingy at NYP then soon, yongsoon came. leona sprained her ankle but she chose to bluff us her leg was only tired, not wanting us to worry. but, in fact, she made us more worried.

headed to 848 for dinner with omella and regina at 6 plus.

back from dinner, saw jemjem and cousin there too. we were being asked to leave as more ppl were coming for dinner and we were taking up their space. eventually, we cabbed to drive through mac with alvin tan joining us too.

study, study and study.

charis, omella and regina went for hot beancurd and had them packing for me.(:

headed home with regina and charis at around 10 plus. tried talking sense into charis on the way back. hopefully she'll know what's gonna be the right thing she should do. (:

today

i was late again, like always. sorry once again, regina. (:

trained to woodland, wanted to go civic library but, was fully packed. not wanting to waste our trip, we went to have something we can't find in yishun. regina had her beef noodles while i ate korean cuisine.

bused back to yishun and went safra bowling alley to study in the end. amath question sent our brain cracking. but, we managed to solve it. haha.

yongsoon joined us soon after. started to slack, no mood to study. so were both of them. thus, packed up and went off in the end. was having a hard time deciding where to go as it was still rather early. wanted to watch movie but didn't in the end.

headed to np, still deciding where to go. eventually, asked yongsoon to go off first as he looked pretty bored. we girls went walking, having no idea where to go. ended up at nee soon cc cafe, slacking till 4.30 before we went back home.

home sweet home.

&&& i'm starting to love chemistry. (:

daddy just told me that teacher called and said i did worst than mid year for prelim. but, i'm not mad cause i totally agree. and i did badly, very badly. ):
STUDY!!!

some people told me it wasn't worth it.
i know, cause you said that too.
i know there's someone in your mind now.
but, someday,
when i can manage to forget, i will.

can we be back like friends?

school was alright today.

stand for 20 minutes for ss lesson. teacher was disappointed in us cause only 6 students turn up for the humanities lesson yesterday. after that, spend the rest of the lesson doing correction for prelim sbq.

got back chinese result. paper was done quite well. but after adding oral and listening, marks was being affected. drop a few points. but, got a B3, at least it was better then o's. (: yongsoon so wasted, a few more marks A1 for paper. but, anyway you still win _ overall with oral and listening. haha. don't need beat someone. haha.

chemistry lesson was fun. (: finally i'm starting to study this subject. haha. it wasn't that difficult after all. i'm gonna get my basic first.

skip chinese mock exam and headed to np for ljs with regina and omella.

home sweet home.

gonna be out to study at cc. (:

a little more each time.

didn't went school today. was tired and find lesson boring (indeed. they told me so).

was ringed up by charis in the morning asking if i wanna watch movie with them. actually, was planning to go for art and humanities enrichment. but, they told me they were skipping f&n and humanities. so, i decided to go with them for the movie.

fall asleep while waiting for time to pass. and, ended up late. thus, watched 'the underdog'. never watch movie with charis. haha. she's so emotional messed-up. when the dog was like dying, she could actually laughed out so loud. overall, the movie is nice.

after the show, we went walking about to kill time. jiali, charis and meilin headed back to school for lesson while leona and omella went back home. accompany them to the interchange and went back to northpoint to wait for regina and weixi.

went to foodcourt to look for _.

EPP,
i really had no idea how you manage to see them this way despite your liking for him. it really hurts so much. and i know you do.

had sakura for lunch. and went walking about np again. saw peijie and helped her to look for her congrats card for some friends graduation day. pj, i'll make more of those type of cards provided i'm officially appointed to do so. haha. but, for now, blame the company for those ugly cards. haha. (:

finally, decided to go nee soon cc cafe to study. saw my sister and friends there. ended up playing poker cards instead of studying. haha.

went back to np at around 5 to get regina's stationary and bused home. talking to weixi about some 'ppl-finding-problems' stuff. you just came to my mind. ......

home sweet home.

just the way it remain.

school was boring and somehow, a waste of time. nothing much was done.

first few period was spend sitting around though teacher was in school. teacher seems busy with the sec 1 to 3. but, since their end of year examination is nearing, and teacher can't simply neglected them because of us. thus, understandable.

english lesson was spend going through composition stuff, followed by english mock paper during consultation period. almost everyone were falling asleep due to the weather. straight after the paper, went for 5 minutes break and was given the answer. we were told to mark and ask if we had any question or we'll be free to go. thus, most of us went off.

amath lesson was held in the study room, a much more better environment. was told to finish trigonometry questions before we can go off. i'm starting to love amath again. probably because it was trigo i did today. (:

i can't love someone i love.

lesson was mainly spent in the art room doing coursework. cause it was the last day for submission. i was the slowest. haha. i only managed to finish at 2 while the rest were hours earlier then me. but, i finish it anyway. and, no more art to stress me out! ((:

went for 20 minutes of amath lesson and then had math mock exam in the hall. but, was sleepy so didn't really care much. so were the rest. haha. they wasn't doing either.

went 219 for early dinner with charis. had a nice chat with her. (:
home sweet home.

i fail my ss and manage to just pass history. scored such a pathetic score for ss-20. ): prelim was badly done, badly. fail four subject and just pass for two subject. hopefully chinese won't be this bad.

gonna be off to find regina and charis with weixi later on.

& sorry to disappoint you jeremy.

one more try

didn't rest for the night because of coursework. worked till around 7 plus before going off to shower. had adrain coming to my house to wait for me while i got myself ready for school. hasn't any lesson in the morning thus took my own sweet time.

packed macdonald for yvonne and ourselves for breakfast. spend quite a long time waiting for cab. probably due to the weather. it was raining rather heavily and cabs seems to be the faster way to get to the destination easily, without getting wet. after a few minutes, we manage to get one.

went to the study room to find lala and yvonne. continued my art stuff. and i realized there's lot more needed to be done.

went for english at ava room. was being taught the summary skills. was considered kind of helpful.

skipped science lesson for art again. really regreted not finishing them earlier and now, i'm rushing like mad. stayed in the study room with adrian helping to cut the wording. and he went off after that to help his father.

went for art at 2 and got my final pieces done and was told to do more for my boards. stay till 5 plus and the damn headache is killing me. so i cabbed home first.

super, ultra tired.

it's the look that i miss
it's the smile that i miss.
it's you that i missed so much.
but, never will it be the same anymore.

omella's credit.

it's such a boredom at home. had been facing the lappy for hours editing the wording for coursework. left the mounting board untouched cause simply ran out of ideas. but, i'm gonna get them completed later. (:

brother just spend his pay on a man united jersey which cost him 130+++ bucks and he say it was worth it. 50++ for some ordinary shoes and he's treating some girls. and sadden, not even a single thing for me.

had charis coming over to transfer my files into her thumb drive for printing. apple strudel again, for lunch. (:

now, i'm sitting here while she playing the stupid ass-y flying game. haha. (as i said charis.) a moment later, got my sister to buy for me mango ice blend-a sudden craving for that. (: around 4 plus, charis went back as she said she's gonna go home for studies.

it's 24 days to practical. which means O's coming and one year is ending soon. everything's gonna change. lots of things happened this year. be it good or be it bad. i'll miss everyone.

things ain't the way they were before.
it might be better this way, perhaps.

woke up at 7 and started doing my sketches which i should had finished yesterday night till 9 plus. as i was out all day yesterday, pretty tired and lazy, i decided to went off to sleep instead of finishing what was required. got part of the drawing done, went off to meet weixi and cabbed to school.

did layouts and some analysis. was told to get some leaves from the school compound. went about looking for the patterns of different leaves. happen to pass by 'mock strawberries'. find it rather interesting and bent down to took a look and.. i spotted caterpillar. ran off feeling disgusted. it made my hair stand. i HATE worms, it freak the hell out of me. luckily, jiali was there or i won't even have any single leave to draw.

got everything planned and settled. went off to find regina with weixi. bused to 219 for lunch with andrew, jakeh, and some other regina's classmate. had kevin's mum fried fish bee hoon. (: and after that weixi, regina and i went off to the library to accompany jiaxiong who is doing CSO while the rest went home.

found a spot, got some books and sat there. eventually, jiaxiong decided to go off 2 hours earlier as he could not take it anymore. haha. went to buy his bubble tea and went to mac to slack. went off early with weixi as i was too tired. bought mango ice blended on the way back home as the weather was horribly hot.

was quite awake when i was home, probably due to the mango ice. lay out my art stuff, preparing to get it done. but, unknowingly, i lay on my bed, thought of some things and fall asleep till around 7.

now, up and awake doing coursework. but, charis isn't online. i need to get my wording printed. charis!

thanks to jiali, i finally got Van Gogh's painting. (:

sometimes, things just don't turn out prefect.

Career Day
21 September 2007

career day was kind of boring. started the day with a photo taking section, all sec4 and 5. and went back to class for social etiquette class. was being taught on how our skin work, what kinds of care was needed by what type of skin, inner beauty is the key to outer beauty, etc.

booth section was worst. only 1 polytechnic came and the rest were ite. didn't even took a look and we headed to the library to kill time as well as to keep ourselves chill. sat around and did a personal test and took lots of photo.

headed to the ava room for the interview skills, which wasn't helpful after all. and it made all of us sleepy. decided to stay at the centeen when break was given and didn't went back eventually. had yongsoon playing the piano. he was awesome, he's really great. feeling could be felt. haha.

around 3 plus, when all was dismissed, jem and damien went back to help us get our stuff. after that, some of us walked to safra to play pool. sat there and watch as i was broke and my dressing wasn't appropriate either.

at around 5 plus, cabbed to yishun stadium to find charis, weixi, regina and yang. and we headed to np. but all didn't wanna eat. thus i packed sushi and apple strudel for dinner. (: walked to cc to accompany someone to see _. then bused home.

lots of work to rush for tomorrow. gonna be another sleepless night. i'm so sick and tired.

it's meaningless after everything is gone.

beneath my heart still lives your shadow.

school was alright. but, still kind of bored.

got back math paper and it's sure a disappointment. lost lots of marks due to carelessness. paper 1 fail but luckily paper 2 pull up the overall. but still, it's considered badly done. and after moderation, i guess i only got a c5. damn disappointed.

chemistry paper wasn't any better either. single digit for practical and scored only 15 out of 65 for written paper.

well, art wasn't fantastic as well. scored a c6. but, i expected it cause it's really like some kind of junk. teacher was so disappointed in me as well, so was i. ):

had humanities enrichment course after lessons. though they didn't really teaches us humanities. it's some kind of talk to motivate us, i suppose.

edited at 0200am.

went over to weixi house to wait for her to get change. trained to orchard to find omella and leona. met charis and happened to see owen in the mrt station as well. charis alighted at novena to met her mum. and the rest of us to orchard.

went far east plaza and started looking for clothes for tomorrow. all of us spend over two hundred bucks. now we are almost broke. but, after all, we still manage to get what we wanted. (: haha

left far east plaza at 8 plus with leona and weixi while omella and owen went for their dinner. bid farewell and headed to the station. back at yishun, happen to see charis again. (: after that, bused home.

my apology to damien for making you come all the way for nothing when i had already promised.
my apology to leona for making you wait so long.
sorry. (:

yesterday

trip to hongkong was cancelled due to some reason. and we were being offered to go to vietnam or melbourne instead. vietnam was out and we were left with melbourne. but, all doesn't seems interested. so, i guess not going anymore. though i wish for melbourne. ):

school was really boring. had two and a half hours of humanities straight, one after another. and there wasn't any release of result either.

went yishun stadium via mr phua car with adrian, nicholas and andy. charis and regina wasn't in the best of mood for some reason. saw adelina, danny, cheehong and alvin working out at the gym. talked to adelina and danny then continued with my game.

after that went np with the usual. and we had waffle and bubble tea for dinner. walked to nee soon cc, slacked and headed home.

today

school was alright. was told that we were split into several class for english lesson. and i fall in the second worst class- expected.

got back bio, english and amath paper. flung almost all the paper. scored 17/45 for bio. 26/60 for eng paper 1 and 25.5/50 for eng paper 2. worst paper- additional math. 26/80 for paper 1 and 17/80 for paper 2. but, luckily overall for eng pass. thank to oral. (:

was an hour late for art lesson due to some delay in eng consultation period. was being fired at by trainer for not telling her. after that, continue with prep work and was given some information regarding the part on research. we got our deadline extented to monday. (:

went off at 5 and happened to see mr lee, mdm au, pj, lala and sec 5 students playing. changed and went in to play with leona. they were damn fast, really. after that, cabbed home. gave pj and yvonne a ride back. home sweet home.

all this time i was pretending.
i really hate the way it is now.
so much.

falta

went early to school despite having lesson starting at 1005. stayed at the study room with lala and yvonne doing practically nothing most of the time. they did science while i did my art. find it kind of weird having normal lesson once again. so use to exam period.

wasn't given back english paper as there's someone who hasn't taken the paper yet. thus, did mock exam paper instead. was given an hour to finish a composition. most of the class didn't managed to finish including me. some hasn't any idea what to write while some just sit around and talk. but still, we were told to hand it up. teacher was so pissed with our attitude towards our work. but, we doesn't seems to care much.

bio lesson went through science mcq paper. and i flung that 'only hope' paper. but, something else hit me more hard. something.

there's some discipline problems with some friends and i hope they will be alright.

went for art lesson at 2. sort all the drawing out and continued second cutting cum printing. had regina buying waffles for me for my lunch. (: continued with art work and went off at 4 plus. had regina, charis, shengyang, adrian and nicholas waiting for me. so sweet of them. thanks (:

after that, all of us bused home except for nicholas who walked home. had charis coming over for some show again. 'failure to launch' and 'the break-up'.

tissue is our best friend.
only pj and jiali known why. (:

mummy, i know you care.
but, just leave me alone for the time being.
i'll be just fine after that.

thoughts, emotions..
silence it shall be.

letting my words remain unsaid.
letting my questions remain unanswered.
letting my thoughts remain undisclosed.
letting my wound remain unlooked.
letting my heart remain unmoved.
letting my love remain unaltered.
letting everything remain unsolved.

though i still love you.

yesterday

went back to school for art lesson at the centeen. did the printing part and it's so not easy. printed 15 pieces and went for our second cut. i didn't bring my cutter thus i went packing and cleaning up. got the table, all the stuff cleaned but got myself all dirty and wet.

regina was having her amath too. she came finding me and waited for my lesson to end. went 925 for lunch with her, andrew and jakeh and we had chicken rice. jakeh got a real big appetite-3 bowls of rice. went gv to get their waffles. saw elvinsia at funland.

after that, the rest of us walked home while andrew went for transport. jakeh and regina went the other way. walked till 219, elvin went his way.

slept for the whole afternoon till 7 plus 8. watched 'little secret' on channel 5. had charis coming over for 'mr bean holiday'.

fried some nuggets for my dinner but eventually we ordered kfc. we were told that our order were to reach at least 12 bucks. thus, we order 2meltz, 1two pieces and a pineapple pine. too much till we can't even finish. thus, decided to leave them for supper. and, my sister have them.

charis went off early in fear of having no key to get home. thus, i finished the movie and 'mr dolittle 3' on my own. and went off to sleep.

today

trip to my teacher house was cancel. it was changed to mon, tue and wed in school. was planning to go to the library to study but woke up late and there won't be much places left at such a timing. thus, decided to stay at home.

nothing much to do, i guess it's gonna be a day home, doing nothing but drawing. maybe some comedy show if charis is coming over.

a man can do more than he thinks he can, but usually less than he thinks he does.
-anonymous

something's gonna change.

too much for comfort-

left home at 1.45 to meet regina and they rest at 219 when i'm suppose to reach at 1.30. had kevin's mum fried fish beehoon once again, it has been years since we last ate. watched a video there and it really disgusted some of us.

after that bused to np to get jelly beans but it wasn't what i wanted. so, i gave all to sy. haha. walked about np and bused to yishun stadium for badminton. lots of ppl came. charmaine, jasmine, huiqi, yiguang, jiaming, arvindt, ek and some other guys which i had no idea who they were.

after that, went ljs for dinner. and headed to nee soon cc to find my sister. sat down for some time and walked home.

the guilt came hunting for me.
i finally know how it feels that way.
someone is back to the past.
i won't say anything cause i'm in no position to do so.
but, there's something then i own you, my apology.
i'm sorry.

there's once a greatest story that happened to me.
but, it didn't end like some fairytale.

it's breaking my heart to see you this way.

if you need a listening ear,
i'll be there.

yesterday
ton till 7am to get my art done. but, didn't manage to finish. and, sad to say it wasn't up to expectation. it turn out like so kind of primary school art work. such a disappointment.

felt the earthquake before bio paper. thought i was feeling dizzy cause i was tired. but, after that, pj felt it too. was feeling really tired, don't even have the energy to hold my head up to concentrate on bio paper. in the end, just flip through and wrote some answer. lots was blank and non-relevant answers. so, it's a fail. i really sucks at science and don't feel like caring about it anymore. but, O's how?

4 hour plus of break in between was spend on art again. trying to get the colour scheme and final piece done. managed to did that with some help. (: thanks to meilin, charis and adrian.

feeling quite sleepy for art paper. paint till it get out of the line but, still manage to get it back in line. i guess this paper won't be a past either. or perhaps just a low pass.

went home and sleep till the next morning.
this explain why i didn't blog. (:

today
last prelim paper! combined chem/bio mcq paper. maybe this will be the only science paper i'll pass. cabbed home with lala. was talking about which poly will be a better choice. cause after taking my brother and some other ppl advice, it's quite hard to make a choice.

going for brunch with regina later and off to yishun stadium for badminton. (: but, i'm still deciding if i should go for the movie at darren's house later on. there's still O's coursework to be done for tomorrow.

art and amath lesson tomorrow.
art at ms fernandes's house-tampiness on sunday.
there goes my weekends again.

there's lots to say.
but, i never.

i miss you way too much.

it's the unusual feeling.

reached school pretty late. was right on the dot for today's paper. had been running late for the past few days. probably because of the sleepless night till 4. wasn't studying but was dreaming. hasn't any idea what i have been doing and thinking for this past few days. something just doesn't seems right, hasn't any idea why either.

chemistry, a sure fail subject. so, today's chem paper-fail. didn't really do much. everything was just rubbish, nonsensical answers.

cabbed home with lala. she told me ghost story about alien which she reads recently. alien taking people's cells and tissue.. i forgotten was it in america or britain, they research on such stuff but did not reveal it. all present there were told to seal their mouth. but, eventually, news got out and ever since then, nothing was ever heard. ET was real?! i'm really in doubt.

it's another night burning midnight oil for my prelim art. and not a single thing was done except for some research. but, i'm gonna make it. haha.

it's all about you.

i love you.

math paper 2 was considered alright. not too hard, not too easy either. some question do required some thinking. but, overall still manageable.

had lunch in school and went into the room in the library to do revision. just then, we girls started talking about memorable time we spent together. images of events started reconstructing in our mind. the drunkard state we were in, the sudden mental breakdown stuff we did, etc. there was a sudden urged to return to the past. but, it's not possible, we knew. life still goes on. but, just miss it.

after that, we continued studying. i wasn't prepared for the paper. but, nothing much was done either to make it turn out better. daydreamed for the day.

not much luck for amath paper 2. total of 12 question, not even a full marks for any question. all was just kind of 'filled' in-parts and bits of each. blanks all over my paper. i'll be considered lucky to be able to score 20marks. totally screwed.

it's been quite some time...

thoughts of you doesn't stop.
doesn't, no mater what.

i can't stand seeing it so unusual.
but, at the same time, i fear.

deep devotion

how i wish i could go back to the past.
and mend the wound.

well, maths paper was quite easy, tractable. majority says so. (: after paper, went back home to get my jacket cause of the weather, it was freezing cool. changed cause was caught in the rain and was wet.
cabbed back to school to catch up with the revision. but, ended up sitting down there doing practically nothing. i just can't seems to concentrate despite helps. nothing fills my head. had kfc meltz for lunch. thanks to meilin. she gave me her share. (:
amath paper was done horribly? perhaps. there's only 1 question i'm confidence in. the rest it's gone case. paper 1 was considered below O's standard but, it's still kind of hard for us. so, we definitely gonna work harder. tomorrow amath paper is gonna be real tough. mr lee said so. but, it's still kind of lucky cause we know which topic is coming up. (:
it's another night till 5.

i'm so use to it till i had no idea how to do so.

do you still remember how it all started?
do you still remember what you once told me?
do you still remember the first time we met?
i remembered.
every little thing that got to do with you, i'll remember.

i remember how it all started.
i remember everything you told me.
i remember how we first met.
i remember the way you talk to me.
i remember the way you call my name.
i remember the time you went to yishun stadium to find me.
i remember the time you were there for me when i cried hard for_.
i remember the time when i took you for granted.
i remember you saying that the only difference between us was you love me but i don't.
i remember the time when you held my hand.
i remember the time we spent together.
i remember spending my birthday out with you.
i remember something held up and made you waited for hours.
i remember the way you look when you were not well. it pains me.
i remember studying with you.
i remember the way you study.
i remember the cute looks of yours.

i remember how it all ended as well.
i remember what was said.
i remember the heartache.
i remember crying hard for your return but to no avail.
i remembered everything.

do you still remember?
0909

woke up by leona's call this morning. was 1 and a half hour late for lesson. i finally got an idea how my prep work looks like. haha. prelim stuff is also settle. it's all up to me to get them done. haha. busy busy busy!
headed home at 1. shower, changed and went to the salon with mummy and sister. mummy got her hair steam, sister-rebond, while i got my hair perm. kind of regreted it. omg! hopefully it will get better after a few more wash. had charis coming over to find me. she tried to console me by saying it was alright. but, i know it wasn't. hopefully it really get better. ):
went np to find regina with charis. then after that went to bk to find ms ong and the usual ppl. chatted with them. after a while, all headed to kahtib mac to continue studying and i went back to find regina.
it looks really fun working. haha. those baby clothes look so cute. (: helped regina when there were more customer. it's fun. really. (:
after that went about walking around np with sophina and zeen went timezone, deciding where to have our dinner. in the end, regina and i went 291 for western food while sophina went home. chatted while we had our food. thanks regina tay for the fish and chip! haha. then accompany her wait for bus and walked home.

hasn't seen him for some time.
miss him much.

if we were..
but, we ain't.
and never will we.
i know.

memories, that's what's left behind.

lappy was home yesterday but it can't get into internet explorer, could only online. thanks to my brother who's trying to make it beautiful but more useless. haha. it became so problematic. thus, having it at home is the same as not having it. haha
went chit-chating with my sister and played poker cards cause we can't sleep. she's so funny. haha. eventually, we got hungry and we went to cook instant noodles. sit around till 4 plus then we went to sleep.
well, i'm only left with the weekends for holidays. but, i was told by my teachers that we're having art and amath on saturday as well. now, i'm only left with sunday. and who will be free on sunday to go out. it's either a family day or everyone's gonna stay at home as the following day is school/examination. so, there goes my holiday.
gonna be it school at 1 later on. and it's 5hours of art! gonna get mentally deranged soon. haha. but, i'm finishing soon, i guess. i'm left with the lino cutting and printing, which seems to be the hardest. but, my 8 board is still soso empty. teacher says there's lots more to do. haha

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cab-ed to school again as i was rather late. after i reached, i realise that ms_ wasn't there yet. there goes my cab fare again. haha. sit around waiting and chit-chated with elaine. then mdm_ ask me to sweep the floor cause she said i seem rather free. haha. ms_ reached at 1.40. started my lino cutting and it was alright. much better then the previous try out i did. haha. jiali said that. (:
elaine and i went out to get refreshment for everyone. perhaps brunch. and we climb out of the gate as that's the fastest route. haha. brought everything as listed and bus-ed back to school.
was released an hour early today as all of us was tired. went downstair and saw jaili and the others still having amath lesson.
headed home first as i have work to be done by tomorrow.
watching apartment 1303 soon i guess. they mention it just then.
school tomorrow! gonna get going. (:

i fear.
something doesn't seems right.

i remember everything.
do you?

woke up by brother's call at early morning 7 just to get the door open for him. he had forgotten his key. he was out dota-ing till morning, his usual routine. crazy idiot.
after that went back to sleep till 10 plus, woke up to do my art. cause having art lesson at 3 and i need to get everything done by then. thus, decided to skip chemistry lesson to get my stuff done.
all of them are going out later, and i'm still deciding if i should join them. i'm having art lesson till 6 and it's gonna be quite late. perhaps i should just catch a movie with charis. haha.

in case you people are wondering who is the 'YourBeloved' in my tagboard, it's a girl. but, i'm not suppose to write her name. (:

how i wish i could take it back all in time.
but it has gone too far.

i feel my heart ache when i know...

YESTERDAY
went school for amath lesson.
mrs_was in the class as well.
but, lesson was as usual.
having kangxian keep asking question.
but, this time round damien was damn quiet. haha
and of all places, mrs_ sat beside me.
so, i don't even dare to talk. haha
but, she was funny. haha
she joked and teaches us how to tease ms_.
eventually, mrs_ teaches us.
after hearing what she says, it's quite true we were really slow.
after an hour of lesson, we were released.

went to pass leona her stuff.
mummy isn't cooking dinner.
thus, went to have kfc with leona and weixi.

home-ed.
but was damn bored.
thus, went to make fruit juice and jelly. haha
shall buy some baking powder and bake cookies. haha

when making, someone called.
and we started talking for hours.

TODAY
woke up by coach's call.
asking if i'm going for training.
there were only 6 people.
and, he brought breakfast but he had got no utensils.
so, if i am going, he asked me to kindly bring for him.
so poor thing. haha
thus, decided to go.

gonna have lesson from 3 to 6 later.
and, it's maths.

EDITED AT 08:50PM
went for an hour badminton only.
then bus-ed to np.
had ljs for lunch.
cause weixi wanna eat that.
then meet regina.
then 4 of us bus-ed home together.
went home showered and changed.
and cab-ed to school.
math lesson was indeed boring.
was scolded for wearing red shoes.
damn la!
after lesson bus-ed home.
had charis coming over for 'the pursuit of happyness'.

there is something missing in my heart.

life is messy.
love is messier.

still misses everything about you.

camp was cancel due to some reasons.
everyone was so upset.
mrs_ even talked to us.
we tried to propose a few more times but still fail.
and damien really did his very best to help.
eventually, he even make us laugh. haha

shall treat this as a lesson learned.
it ain't easy to organise a camp, indeed.

blur sotong weixi lost her hp.
everyone went about seaching but to no avail.
but, she's kind of lucky.
just a moment ago,
some kind soul called and told me he found wx's hp. (:
some northbrooks ex student. haha

i'm gonna stay up for a few shows later. haha
'school for scoundrel'
'catch and release'
hopefully it will be nice :)

beautiful soul

i miss you

was woke up by lots of ppl today.

my phone just can't stop ringing.

so, i'll have to wake up.

ahhh..

i slept at 3 yesterday.

and i won't be sleeping for the next 2day, cause of the duty.

so, how am i to survive without enough sleep.

dots.

the purpose of their call was to ask if i'm going for badminton. haha

since i have already wake up, then i'll be going. (:

gonna be off to yishun stadium. (:

i have lots to say.
but, i'm just not bold enough.
i'm afraid i'll just stumble.
and say everything wrongly.

i longed to see you but i can't.
i miss you.

EDITED

i'm bored.
damn bored.

and the renovation upstair is killing me!
it's so irritating!!
drilling and hammering.
ahhh..

back to school for the whole of next week.
studies.
i hope i'll be able to focus.

camp tomorrow.
and i JUST realised that..
it's a study camp not a amath camp.
and i'm in the planning team.
and phone had to be handed to teacher till 9.30pm.
and it's a 3 day 2 night camp. (thought it was 2 day 1 night)
which means i'll have to bring lots of things.
so last minutes.

how did i fall in love with you?

there's a boy out there which i'm not gonna forget.

Happy Teacher's Day! &
Happy Belated 18th Birthday, Eugene! (:

went to meet regina at np.
actually we going for brunch,
with bear, brother and friends.
but, in the end never.
cause we were late and they eaten without us.
after that, we went separate way.

went to meet yvonne.
waited for weixi.
then bus-ed to drive through mac.

didn't study at all today.
yvonne emphasis alot on the stroke of the chinese character.
thus, she started teaching me. haha
so, i wrote my name all over her paper like she did to mine.
so lame. haha

then, charmaine and jasmine came.
followed by shengyang.
talk and talk.
then sy left follow by weixi as well.

at around 7 plus 8,
left mac after the result of 4D. haha
yvonne didn't win today.
hopefully she win tomorrow then i can get my.. haha
jasmine and charmaine bus-ed to np to look for kevin.
wanted to have nasi lemak but alot of ppl.
thus, walked to np.
saw brother and friends heading to TOT for dinner.

went 921 for dinner cause foodcourt full.
after dinner, bus-ed home with charis.

mummy brought denise over.
she had her hair cut.
and she looked damn cute in her new look. haha (post her picture someday.)
she played with the phone and mummy 'scolded' her.
and she started emo-ing. haha
and i mean it! i saw her expression.
she's so funny and cute. haha
after that, she turn and started crying. dots
so, brought her biscuit and she was alright. haha
after that, mummy brought her back to grand's house.
she said goodbye with a kiss. haha
she's so so so so cute! (:

indelible memories of you.

i think of you.

finally, decided not to go shopping.
going study instead. (:
and there's lot of things to be done.

my september holiday isn't hoilday after all.
i need to go school everyday.
but, maybe it's worth it.
it's helping me anyway. haha
Amath camp on monday. (:

i didn't know how it all started.
it's an affection.
i just simply fall for you.

you meant a lot to me.
if you were to shed a tears, i'll as well.
if you were upset, i'll be as well.
seeing you happy, the happier i'll be.
boy, let me love you.
this will do.

loving you endlessly.